All my friends are dead

The scariest party is the prospect of getting used to it. The transition between being loved and being alone. Dying in a filthy room surrounded by cat's. Seeing the person you were spending the rest of your life with transform in front of you. Watch a light go out behind their eyes as they harden their heart over the course of a few words. The better part of a decade is lost, meaningless, reduced to a learning experience. Tramadol and intake and access. "Are you having any thoughts of harm?". Yes, I'm killing the future me who escaped this life, these four walls and ambient terror. Knowing how little you need and how many have it, to love and be loved. The hard memories will be smothered and the soft ones will haunt my dreams. Wake up and look for them until you remember what has happened.

Fear without possibility of cessation. It's grinding, and every year there are fewer hands to pick up the pieces. Each time they miss a few.

Survival in spite. Joyless days and endless nights. Live until there is no one left to live for.

There is always more to give.

Foreign Friendly After Expo Expo

The Melsonian Arts Council was at the UK Games Expo last week, outside the labourers entrance next to the toilets. Unless you were banging for a piss or were that security guard sleeping by the emergency exit, then you probably missed us. I think it's only fair we give everyone another chance to get in here, give us all their money and see how handsome we are, but this time we'll include our hard done-by international customers.

  1. Go to
  2. Spend £27 and postage is free, a whole £1 saving on UKGE's entrance fee 'cos we love you more
  3. The password at checkout is GIMMETHATLANYARD
  4. Doors open now and close again on June 11th at 4pm.

It's a digital, invisible expo! Just without all those people and games and fun.

We've got 10ish copies of Troika! left, and general stocks of the Undercroft are looking thin. Everyone that buys something at the Expo Expo also gets one of my special convention badges included. THEY ARE MUCH COVETED!